CHANGES!
Coming to terms with passions and dreams that no longer fire me up like they used to.
We are all gonna change anyways, and that’s okay.
Tagged: Personal.
Change creeps up on you and when you finally realize, you have changed. In some instances, I think change and growth can be synonymous. That is not always the case though, you can change without growing.
In this post I shall share a snippet of a subject I hope to explore in detail over the next few months. Feeling changes.
Casey Neistat put an amazing vlog for years, and then decided to quit (kinda), move out of New York to LA to raise his family. Incredible.
In a tweet he posted the other day, he said, just like kids, some things are fun while it lasts, implying that, it stopped being so much fun chasing the grind of YouTube film making.
My Story
I have gotten slowly but surely into a season of my life, where I have totally changed, and started seeing myself differently, and I couldn’t help but wonder. Am I the same person who was into these things ten years ago? They just don’t fascinate me the way they used to years back.
NO LONGER FIRED UP ABOUT PHOTOGRAPHY AS IN MY EARLY TWENTIES
I remember before I bought a DSLR, it used to kill me man. I would sit up all night and scroll YouTube pages. I would learn how to use the camera yet I did not even own one yet.
I also remember when I bought my first DSLR in 2011. My whole world came to a stand still. I remember going to bed with my camera, still in the box, right by my side. My dreams had come true. Oh what a beauty.
I feel like I went through it all, the tough learning, the hard work, for me to make it to the other side where I am now comfortable with creative work. I think about that a lot.
Over the decade, I shot so much. People, projects, nature, streets, and so much more that I could put myself up to. Then two years ago, I slowed down, started shooting less, switched to my mobile phone, and then Covid happened. Stopped shooting at all, and lost all that passion I had for shooting.
You could say, well, I also started a new young family, but I am not sure how much that affected my passions.
I think people change. Everybody does. A different season of your life, requires a different part of you to be strong and show up.
A different season of your life, requires a different part of you to be strong and show up.
Retired Hiphop Acts
I have now started looking at all these hiphop artists and rappers that I grew up listening to that are no longer making music. It’s not that they can’t, they probably don’t want to do it anymore. Who knows why?. They are clearly talented. And they are (almost all) still alive.
But it’s okay to change, it’s okay to move on to other things.
It’s okay to change your dreams, your aspirations, to want different things.
I heard a quote by Mike Tyson once about change and happiness,
No, at one time it meant a lot. When you’re just a young kid this is everything to you, then you realize your priorities change. And you just want your children to be happy and do nice things and that makes you happy. This is nothing. This is just nothing man… — Mike Tyson
Change is inevitable. I think if I can change in the last decade of my life, I should expect to change even more as times an opportunities come my way.
update Dec 28th, 2021
I came to this blog to read it, and it hit me how, I have grown over time. My photography is much stronger. I understand the rules. I can talk about it. I am technically savvy as well as savvy about the craft. And yet, I don’t obsess over it as I used to when I was younger.
It is interesting to me how you can be comfortable in a craft and yet not have it kill you and be passionate about it as before.
Needless to say, I feel like I have developed new passions; like Tech,Crypto and coding and all that crazy passion I used to feel before, it does seem as though I am bringing similar energy to this new path.
